Finding Serenity in a Crazy Mind

I have a bad temper. Once I get angry, my blood feels like its boiling and I feel so agitated. I experienced that tonight as a friend really pushed my buttons. Luckily, I thought it out before responding. I wanted to respond in an agitated and angry way, but I didn't. My husband also helped calm me down- he has a bad temper too, but somehow we are good at calming each other down, unless we are fighting with each other :). I had a bad dream this morning that woke me up about 9am- I decided for once to actually get out of bed and make myself a chai latte, then I enjoyed said latte on our back porch breathing in the nice crisp fall air. I even made myself breakfast which seriously never happens. I was doing remarkably well until I hit a wall around 11:30am of 'What will I do now'? the boredom wall that has become o so familiar to me with unemployment. I decided (against my better judgement) to take a nap. I only slept for an hour because, luckily, I was going to volunteer today. Volunteering has been my saving grace in SO many ways. When I got home I did my usual job search then made dinner. I was supposed to have my follow up TMJ appointment tomorrow, but I forgot to send in the necessary paperwork for the appointment. I filled it out immediately following my first appointment, but never sent it in. I have such a bad memory that if I don't do something right away or set a calendar reminder, I completely forget about it. I am agitated with myself but I have to take it as a learning experience and MAKE SURE I send in my papers before my newly rescheduled appt which of course isn't for two more weeks. I wonder if bad memory and anxiety/depression go hand in hand? It certainly does in my case. my husband remembers so much more than I do. I believe it's because I'm always 'foggy' and not really retaining information. That's just my theory.