Today was a difficult one. I felt myself again feeling very lost and down, wondering what is my purpose in this world (if I have one). I used to feel I did- which is what helped pull me through my teenage years of depression. In college I believed I did as well, then grad school. It all came to shambles when what I thought was my dream career started falling apart around me. That was in 2013- two years later I'm still asking myself who I am, what I was meant to be, and feeling like I don't belong anywhere.
I feel completely unmotivated to go into an empty office with no human interaction and no one that cares if I am there. I feel so very disconnected from myself, my faith, and the world. For me, this is one of the utterly worst feelings I can experience yet I find myself in it again and without knowing how to escape.
This is mental dis-ease, I suppose.
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