So I had been thinking for some time that I needed to break up with Facebook/detox from it. I had come to a few realizations:
1. I was too addicted, checking multiple times per day
2. Nearly 100% of the time I'd find a picture or post that would ignite the massively insecure part of my brain
3. The crappy feeling/self sabotage effect of #2 had also become an addiction
I was also inspired by a friend who did the Facebook detox a few months ago. I found myself wanting to start at the same time but feeling like I couldn't. I had let myself believe, at some level, that I needed it and it needed me. A very unhealthy codependent relationship- with something that doesn't have feelings.
So I'm on Day 2 of my detox and so far I'm pretty amazed how frequently the urge has stuck me throughout both days. I will have to take it one day at a time, and I plan to use helpful tools such as this blog to give me something more productive to do when the urge strikes. I am not at all saying Facebook is a bad thing. My mindset around Facebook had become quite destructive for me. Moving forward in a positive direction. At this point I am not sure if I will rejoin after the 28 day hiatus. Taking that one day at a time.
For years I've maintained a perfect facade. I was an actress skilled enough that I should have won a few academy awards. This past winter I was deeply inspired by "Shadows in the Sun" a memoir on depression. The author's truth made me realize I needed to start by being honest, with myself and with others. This is the first step and I am blogging it along the way in hopes to help anyone who may be struggling with something similar, or at least give hope that you're not alone.
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Facebook Detox
Labels:
anxiety,
detox,
Facebook,
mental health,
social media,
Stress
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