Getting Divorced in 2014

Today I came across a blog post about 'Getting Divorced' in 2014. It sounds like a great idea and I am joining this movement. No, I'm not leaving my spouse either. I plan to work on 'unplugging' myself from my addiction to my phone and the internet, and be in the moment much more than I am now. One of my more important Divorce decisions is something that I wanted to do in 2013, but knew 2014 would be the right year to make it happen. After 3+ years, I am 'divorcing' my current Therapist. He has helped me, a lot, over the past 3+ years. However, after all this time, I am still not where I want to be mentally, and I want to continue growing. Looking back on my time with this particular Therapist, he has been encouraging me to stay on ati-depressant medication. When I initially went to see him, I agreed that I really did need it. After all this time, however, I feel it has lost its positive effect on my life. I also strive to be a Mother one day, and I am way too paranoid to try to get pregnant while I have any kind of medication in my system. I was okay being on medicine while I was but long-term it's just not for me. I'm not for or against medicine, I think it's up to each individual person. For me, I really want to rely on my Faith and in myself to help get me to a better place. I want to nourish my soul and my mind, and work on being a more positive and happier person. This feels right as medicine has not felt right for a while. I need to listen to myself and give this a try. Looking back, I can also recall quite a few times when my Therapist would have a smug grin on his face when I would say something, almost like he was going to laugh at me. On the inside, I was very offended by this. However, I actively avoid confrontation and never stand up for myself, so I never mentioned it. There was also quite a few times that he would accuse me of being 'pissed' (i.e. "O, did I just piss you off?") or he would say it more bluntly. Confused, I would say "No, you didn't" because he didn't. Maybe I look pissed when I am thinking or processing a thought. I honestly have no idea. I need someone who 'gets' me and sure as hell doesn't actively offend me. Unfortunately, finding a Therapist is very similar to dating because it sucks. You call people, wait for a call back, sometimes it doesn't happen. Sometimes you talk via phone or email, or once in person, and you realize it's just not going to work out. And so your search continues. Then, when you find the right person (as I thought I had), sometimes time and changes within yourself and your life cause you to realize that they no longer match those changes the way you need them to, and that is okay. I make it harder on myself to find someone because I look for someone who does both therapy and medication meanagement, a very hard combination to find. Most therapists won't talk meds, and most Psychiatrists want to talk to you for 5-10 minutes and then tell you to get on something. I am most comfortable with a person willing to do both, and of course those people usually don't accept insurance because, simply, they don't have to. After much research I have my first appt with a new Therapist coming up later this month. It's a woman, and she's based out of a church, so it will be more of a spiritual therapy (I'm assuming). I am looking forward to trying something new, and at the same time very prepared to continue working on this and continue the search. Life is worth it.