My husband and I recently traveled together and on our way into the plane coming home I thought to myself "Give him the window seat." This may not seem like a big deal to some but let me explain.
We've known each other for a little over four years. When we met, I made it CLEAR that I MUST ALWAYS HAVE THE WINDOW SEAT. Much like my other high maintenance travel demands, he smiled and willingly caved, never arguing or even so much as asking if he could have it just one time. All the sudden, last evening, I found myself wanting to give him the window seat. Why? Because I realized that I have been selfish. I have been taking the more comfortable seat with the better view for four years, because I had someone who was willing to give it to me. I realized I no longer wanted to be selfish, and do something nice for him. When I told him to take the window seat, he was so taken aback that he said "No, you take it" and insisted on still giving it to me. I sat in my usual window seat, except this time it didn't feel comfortable. I wanted to follow through on my desire and allow him the opportunity to sit there. I stated that I would feel much happier if he took the window seat, so we switched. Once he got comfortable, I saw the smile on his face and the light in his eyes as he said a very genuine 'Thank you'. I felt at peace and happy.
I know to many people giving up a window seat is so little and simple, but to me it was rather profound. To me it represented that after 2.5 years of marriage, I am finally willing to put my husband first and show him a small act of kindness in appreciation of everything he does for me. Mainly, the fact that he waited 2.5 years for me to finally give up that window seat.
For years I've maintained a perfect facade. I was an actress skilled enough that I should have won a few academy awards. This past winter I was deeply inspired by "Shadows in the Sun" a memoir on depression. The author's truth made me realize I needed to start by being honest, with myself and with others. This is the first step and I am blogging it along the way in hopes to help anyone who may be struggling with something similar, or at least give hope that you're not alone.
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
Giving Up the Window Seat
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