In the midst of anxiety

Today I'm a hott mess. Right now I am sitting at my desk jittering on the inside, and feeling like its impossible to sit still. My brain feels like its having a spaz attack across my head. I feel like I'm not breathing correctly. I'm about to pass out. I'm in the midst of a panic attack. Trying to breath slowly, deeply, and tell myself that everything is okay. Telling myself that if I do pass out at my desk, as I fear I will, that someone would call 911 or do something to help me. Despite trying to talk myself down I have not been able to relax as of yet. My acupuncturist taught me how to breathe deeply through my abdomen so I am trying to do just that. I am also staring at the clock thinking "Okay two more hours, you can do it" even though it seems impossible. A coworker just stopped by to ask me a question- she would have asked me what was wrong, right? I guess I appear to be okay, even though I feel like such a mess on the inside. This is anxiety and I wanted to write about it in case other people are or have experienced something similar. You're not alone.