Fell off the bandwagon

Lately I have fallen off the bandwagon and slipped into tried and true methods of self-sabotage. I ate bad all weekend long, didn't sleep well, feeling stressed, and anxiety is yet again getting the best of me. It's completely my fault. I know what helps me. Walking a bit outside after work. Writing. Relaxing. I don't do any of these things. I crave success but then I don't take care of myself, which is essential for success. I want to make a positive difference in the lives of many people, but I have to make a positive difference in my own life first. This is not easy. When it comes to me, I am lazy and apathetic. I just have never cared or put energy into myself. I've never treated myself like a friend. It's time to fight 30 years of this mentality and begin looking at myself as a friend. I need to support myself so that I can be better for everyone else. Time to get back onto the bandwagon.